I think everyday for at least some point of the day I will think about how I had to have an abortion. The process leading up to it. The situation with the guy beforehand. It sucks. I literally want to forget about it. It got triggered because my friend’s sister is pregnant and she’s due in December. Which means she would have got pregnant the month before I did. Yes in a really fucked up kind of way I was jealous and felt bad for myself. Obviously I didn’t express these emotions to him, and am ecstatic for him, and … Continue reading Why do I keep feeling sad about a baby I didn’t want…?
I can honestly say there’s been a huge shift in my thinking about what’s happened since Tuesday. I think I endured the rollercoaster of emotions throughout the week before involving the shock, confusion, anger and sadness. However, it’s now manifested in a much more positive outlook. I have definitely accepted that this is something that has happened to me, and it’s something that I am having to deal with. My choice to have an abortion does not make me a bad person or a stupid person. I’m just a girl who made a mistake and is having to pay for … Continue reading Another update
After enduring the horror of having to explain to a doctor that I didn’t understand how I got pregnant I’m finding this process is actually incredibly frustrating. When explaining that I wasn’t on contraception and we did use condoms, but I didn’t know if it split I was met with a harsh ‘what do you mean you don’t know… he definitely would have known’. It was difficult explaining that I didn’t get told. I don’t know if I was overreacting, but it felt like I was being judged for a situation that I couldn’t fully comprehend I was in. I … Continue reading I thought this process was going to be easier… Update on an unplanned pregnancy
I’m a full believer in always listening to what the earth is trying to tell you. I suppose I would classify myself as quite intuitive about my body/ overly paranoid. So many people around me are pregnant/having babies, I keep noticing babies and I keep having discussions about unwanted pregnancies and abortion referendums happening in Ireland etc… However, I knew something weird was going on with my body because I started feeling really tired without doing anything strenuous. I couldn’t even climb stairs without feeling a bit more out of breath than usual. I was highly aware that this was … Continue reading I need to have an abortion…
I’ve gone from feeling empowered last week when I quit my job and dumped the guy I was casually seeing to feeling dangerously low. I touched briefly upon how I felt like I was going a bit crazy from taking the pill in my previous blog post. My conclusion (now I’m on my break and my thought pattern is more clear) is that for me the pill is intensifying the normal feelings of my natural cycle. So in my experience instead of feeling a bit more hungry than usual it’s like ‘oh my f**king god give me 5 packets of … Continue reading TIME OUT PLZ
This week I quit my job and finished things with the guy I was causally dating. Come to think of it a few things have changed in my life since my last blog post. Let’s start with my job… I suppose I got to the point where I’d had enough and wanted more. The actual job, and by that I mean my daily tasks, was really enjoyable and I will miss that. However, the circumstances surrounding the job were souring and had been for a while. They were trying to make me do too much expecting the customer facing demands … Continue reading Life is too short to continue with things that make you miserable
I keep stating that I don’t want this blog to turn into a whiney, pity party. However, when things go wrong it is hard to not use this as a way to ventilate. I would much rather ventilate on paper … Continue reading Stop underestimating yourself. NOW.
Full credit is now given to people who manage to continue blogging alongside uni/school/real jobs, it’s hard to dedicate time to writing and upkeeping a blog when other things get in the way. For me, things have been ok. Final … Continue reading I Went M.I.A For A Bit
Monday… Again. Hello to another week. I often find that I allow how my Monday went to set the tone for the whole week ahead. If I have a good Monday it’s great and I know that I will have … Continue reading My Week
This is a useful more general website I found that informs you of the stuff I forgot to ask my GP about when being prescribed citalopram. Namely it gives advice about stuff like taking it and drinking (which you can … Continue reading Progressing With Citalopram
I do not want my blog to turn into a negative ventilation for my anger/sadness, but at this specific moment in time I am completely stuck in a rut. On the 18th I have 2 3,500 word essays due in. … Continue reading Bad Day
On the 23rd December 2016 I finally went to the GP and discussed my feelings of depression. I already exercise regularly, attend counselling sessions at university, eat healthily, have friends, get up and do my day (but I wouldn’t say … Continue reading My Positive Experience Of Citalopram (So Far)